Some random stuff I need to vent about.
So it’s been a really long time since I actually posted something & I really honestly miss posting things on here, it gives me something to vent to.. Anyway
So I stayed home from school today, well technically yesterday, but anyway I just was in the middle of washing my face and BLAM I threw up. Then I was getting ready to start brushing my teeth and BLAM… AGAIN I threw up. Twice in about…. 10 minutes. Ugh feeling so yucky right now.
Sooo I kinda have a dream. I really far fetched dream. I want to be a singer. I have known this for a while but I never wanted something so much in my life. I don’t want all the fancy things, I don’t want all the diamonds, dresses, money, all the nice things. No. I don’t care for anything of that sort. I just want to be able to get up on a stage everyday of my life (or mostly everyday) and just sing. Sing till I can’t sing no more. Sing till I lose my voice. I love singing more then anything. I have never had a passion like this for anything. I seem to quit everything I do, but singing is something I have been doing for ever. I have been singing with my dad, karaoke, since I was like 5. I never really cared about singing until about a two years ago, it was the first time I got up on stage & sang in front of a crowd by myself. It was the most amazing feeling, but I think what would be even better is if I could get up on a stage knowing everyone is there for me, just me.
So, this guy I like, got back together with his ex-girlfriend. I’ve heard a lot about her and how all she ever did as hurt him. And the thing is, is that he seems soooo happy with her. And they even have like planned out a future and I don’t know, I seem to talk to one of my friends about him and she says I think he’s gonna hurt him again and I say “if she does, I’m gonna be right here.” I don’t know how long it’s gonna be till they break up, but I have known this kid for such a long time & I’ve always had a crush on this kid. He is such a sweetheart and he may seem like a sweet-talker & maybe that’s all he is, but he seems just so… Amazing. I don’t think I have ever called someone amazing before. Ugh. This kid is legit all I have ever wanted in a guy. He was the first guy I have ever called baby, & he wasn’t even mine. Ugh. Whatever.